zazenkai

I just came back from a 3 hour zazenkai with the group at the Zen Center. It was intense! I really liked it.

There were moments that I wanted to laugh and then I wanted to cry and plenty of moments near the end when I just wanted my legs to stop hurting. But it so interesting to watch where your mind goes. So much wanting. I want this and that. Or as Charlotte Joko Beck says:

Caught in the self-centered dream, only suffering;
holding to self-centered thoughts, exactly the dream;
each moment, life as it is, the only teacher;
being just this moment, compassion's way.