I just came back from a 3 hour zazenkai with the group at the Zen Center. It was intense! I really liked it.
There were moments that I wanted to laugh and then I wanted to cry and at the end I just wanted my legs to stop hurting. But it so interesting to watch where your mind goes. So much wanting. I want this and that. Or as Charlotte Joko Beck says:
Caught in the self-centered dream, only suffering; holding to self-centered thoughts, exactly the dream; each moment, life as it is, the only teacher; being just this moment, compassion's way.